Are you spiritually filled and set free?
And this is the record, that God hath given to us eternal life, and this life is in his Son. He that hath the Son hath life; and he that hath not the Son of God hath not life. (1 John 5:11-12 KJV)
Salvation in God through His son Jesus Christ is something man either has or he has not. There is no sitting on the fence, or drifting in and out of a relationship with God, or coming close to making a decision to have a personal relationship with Him.
Man either has a personal relationship with God or he does not. Man is either dead in his sin or quickened spiritually alive and covered by the atoning precious blood of Jesus Christ shed on the cross at Calvary for all sin; past, present, and future. New spiritual life comes as the Holy Spirit of God comes to reside in the believer’s softened heart now and for all eternity.
Those who have a stony darkened heart exist dead in their sin facing spiritual death both now and for all eternity rather than possessing eternal life forevermore through faith placed in God through the finished work of His Son Jesus Christ upon the cross at Calvary.